Well as you all know this has not been a good week for me. I have had a nasty cold virus which has laid me quite low. I have noticed that these things seem to take longer to get over the older I get. It has been made worse by a migraine which came on late Wednesday due to extreme upset and stress.
My poor Rosie is getting worse and Wednesday was a very bad day. She has real trouble walking now and often falls down. The incontinence is worse too so I am constantly cleaning and disinfecting etc. On Wednesday I had been struggling to take her in and out of the garden and up and down to the living room. She had just been in the garden for a wee and wanted to get back upstairs to her favourite sofa.
Usually if you kind of carry her back legs she will walk up the stairs on her front legs. Well as I went to pick her up she sort of collapsed in a heap at the foot of the stairs. I couldn't get her up. She was breathing very shallowly. I tried and tried and I just couldn't get her to move. I thought it was probably the end.
I spent over an hour lying on the floor with her at the bottom of the stairs in my hall. She finally half sat up and I was able to get her up and more or less carry her upstairs. She promptly fell asleep in her favourite place. I was devastated. It is so hard to see her in such a state. I cried and cried......result severe migraine. One of the things that will bring on a migraine for me is upset and stress.
She has been pretty much the same for the last few days and it is very hard to watch. She is skin and bone now although she does still eat small amounts. Despite the fact that we have thought the end was close for the last 6 months I really think that now it is. If there was a God then it would be.
There is no God. If there was a God then he would let both Rosie and my Mum go peacefully in their sleep. Before anyone starts preaching to me, please remember that I respect that you have your beliefs, opinions and views, I also expect that you remember and respect my right to hold different views.
I didn't have a good night, just tossed and turned my way through it really. My cold seems to be on its way out although I still have a streaming nose and now a horrid cough too. My head is a bit better today. The migraine has gone but I have a dull ache now which I think is probably blocked sinuses which I often seem to get with a cold. I have tablets to take so hopefully it will improve over the day.
I need to get better as we are supposed to be going to Stevenage on Sunday for the hospital Christmas party. I haven’t seen my Mum for some weeks and this is my only chance to see her before Christmas. I have to be well though as I can't risk taking germs in there. We will also be keeping a close eye on the snow and ice situation as it is supposed to be bad over the weekend. I do not do driving in bad weather!
We had a very tiny amount of snow yesterday afternoon. For about half an hour it looked like a blizzard out there but there is just a dusting this morning. I don't think we are due any more today but the local forecast says we have an 80% chance of snow overnight and tomorrow. The national forecast says snow pretty much over the entire country tomorrow and Sunday. We shall see.
Today is Simons last day of school. I thought he would be home early but it seems that he will actually be later than normal for a Friday. Apparently I have no understanding of how hard he works! I do understand that it was his choice to take on all the promotions that he has over the last few years. Seemed a daft idea all along to me. Why take on extra responsibilities which you know will mean more work? His choice. I just cop the fallout.
Joshua’s last day of Uni today too so he will be home sometime this evening. Saskia’s last day as well but she will not be coming home until Christmas Eve as she has to work. She will only be home for 2 days, returning to Leicester the day after Boxing Day.
Ok..... I think I just about have the energy to do a catch up on the photo themes. I have missed 3 plus today, equals 4.
The ones I missed. A lucky charm. I don't really have any lucky charms. It seems hardly anyone did. A funny theme maybe? Anyway, I do have my Pandora bracelet which has lots of charms so that is what I am showing you. It has mainly green and blue beads on it today.
Something red. I had a look around the house and it seems that I don’t have much red. I do have several pairs of red shoes but I showed you those when we did the shoe theme. So I am showing you a photo of a Robin who was in my garden this morning.
Hands. How the heck do you take a photo of your hands? With great difficulty! This is my left hand. I am right handed. That reminds me, someone did a blog the other day on right versus left handedness and it made me think that I didn't really know what each member of my family is. I think we are all right handed but not 100% sure about Josh. He always lays the table wrong so maybe that is why. I shall ask him when he comes home.
That brings me to today which is feet. My feet are small and if they didn’t have a nasty skin disease going on I would quite like them! For over 20 years I have had a skin problem. It starts out with tiny blisters that grow into very large blisters and then the skin peels off in sheets and then they go scabby and horrible. My left foot is by far the worst. My right foot can actually look normal a lot of the time. It never goes away and I have had all sorts of treatment for it. Now I just put up with it. It flares up from time to time and right now is one of those times so I am not going to be photographing then today.
Luckily for you I have a photo that was taken when we were on holiday in Jersey back in August. I'm not sure why I decided to take a photo of my feet but I did! Weird. They don't look too bad here.
Ok that is me caught up for now. The themes for the next few days are: 18. Your Christmas tree 19. Something white. 20. Your Christmas decorations.
We haven’t got our Christmas tree up yet. I thought we were going to do it this afternoon but the mood my dear husband was in I think it’s doubtful. I may be able to get some good white shots on Saturday though!
Right I am going to have a shower now to see if I can brighten myself up. Then if my head isn't throbbing I am going to see if I can do something about tidying up around here. As usual because I haven’t been well nothing has been done.
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