Thursday already! Thankfully a brighter day here in Peterborough, with no rain so far!! I am feeling a bit brighter than yesterday and not quite so tired. I had a nice evening yesterday; my friend Ed, with the broken leg, has just come home from his sisters, so I went to see him for a couple of hours.
This morning I have managed to get all the washing and ironing done, but it has left me quite tired so I have spent the last hour finishing my book. "What a carve up" by Jonathan Coe. Frankly, I'm not sure why I bothered! It is a very confusing book.
I had the plumber here first thing this morning to mend the outside tap that we just had done on Tuesday! It was leaking! Turned out that some nut thing at the top near the tap was cracked. I hope it is all sorted now. I am a little bit surprised that he didn't notice this when he did it.
Loulou went to the vet last night for him to check on her poorly tail. He told us what we already know, that it is marginally better but by no means healed. She has another load of antibiotics to take and he will see her again in 3 weeks to see how it is doing. It is still possible that if it doesn't heal she will have to have some of it amputated. Fortunately, it doesn't seem to be bothering her now and she only licks at it occasionally.
Coralie called in this morning to see me after her visit to the diabetes clinic. Her drugs have been upped again. They told her that if she doesn't go in to labour spontaneously then they will induce on the 23rd of June. I still think it will happen sooner that that. I just hope it doesn't start up and then stop again!
While Coralie was here with me we had a long chat about this cystoscopy thing that I am so scared about. She knows how petrified and nervous I get about these things. Anyway, she phoned them up and spoke to them about the possibility of a general anaesthetic or an intravenous sedation, like I have at the dentist.
She spoke to the clinic nurse. I then spoke to the nurse myself afterwards. Initially she seemed to be telling me that a local anaesthetic was all that was on offer. However she did say that it was possibly to have a GA or sedation in some cases and that I would have to discuss this with the consultant.
Her advice was to come in and have the scan done and then see the doctor to explain that I am so nervous that I am not likely to go ahead without some kind of sedation. She assured me that they can't do anything without my permission and that they will only do the scan.
I am still not really happy, as I think once they get you there, they just apply lots of pressure and persuasion and make you feel bad and pathetic so you agree. Anyway, Coralie made the appointment for me and it is next Thursday at 3pm.
I am feeling marginally better because I know that they can't do anything unless I agree but I think they will get cross and irritated with me. I know I need something or I just won't go through with it. It still makes me feel sick and shaky thinking about it.
Yes, I know that sounds pathetic, but for everyone that thinks that......... I am sure there are things that make you feel this way, when I wouldn't be scared at all. Everyone has their own fears and it just so happens these kinds of procedure are some of mine!
Right, I am going to make myself some fruit tea and some lunch. I have been drinking fruit teas the last few days in an attempt to cut down on coffee. It's important that I don't get dehydrated.
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