Well it's been a bit of a miserable day in Peterborough, very cold with lots of wind and rain. Goodness knows what has happened to summer. I haven't been able to get rid of my headache so I have just been laying around really. I have read my book a bit and done my Friday Five blog but that's it. I was sick after my dinner but that's the headache.
I spoke to Simon this morning and they were going to go to the beach so I hope it didn't rain there. Well, not on Simon and my kids anyway! I watched the weather forecast earlier and it is supposed to be really heavy rain all day tomorrow where they are. It shouldn't be quite so bad here.
Simon did sound sorry this morning that I had a headache and was generally still feeling upset. He did say that he thought he shouldn't go to this Dorset thing any more. Mind you, as I said yesterday, one of my children had said that this was the last year they were going to do it anyway; so maybe it's easy to say now that he won't go?
When this first began Simon's parents paid for the whole thing but they decided this time that they could no longer do that. I think that would've been it, except one of his brothers decide to organise it and everyone had to pay for themselves. I'm a bit annoyed about that as I have had to pay some of my own money to help out with our family.
Don't get me wrong it was my choice to help them, I just would've rather give it to them for something else. The place is quite pricey... £180 per person. That may sound reasonable but it is only for 4 nights and although I have never been, I have seen photos and heard the reports. Apparently it is very run down and dilapidated and the food by all accounts is disgusting. They sneak out and buy burgers and fish and chips!!
It sounds to me, from what I have been told, to be a bit of an odd sort of place, that I think is sometimes used for retreats and the like. They do "activities" which I know some of my family do enjoy. Simon's family spend a lot of time having "deep meaningful discussions". That is most definitely not my scene. It can become very personal and I am afraid that I am the kind of person who thinks my private life and my marriage are my personal business. LOL! I share it all on here instead! BUT...that is my choice and remember this is mainly just for me and helps to get rid of my negative feelings.
I am waiting for Simon to ring now. He said he would ring this evening and I said to make it as late as possible because I will be awake for hours. It's nearly midnight though and I am beginning to think he may have forgotten as he is usually in bed by now. He was last night. I hope I don't have to phone him and remind him because that will make me really mad! If he phones me then I know he is thinking of me. Silly I know!
Right going to get off of here now and read my book while waiting for the phone to ring.
POST SCRIPT. I rang Simon as I suddenly got this panicky feeling that maybe something had happened as he would normally be in bed by now. He was just having a drink he said. Also Verity is there now too which surprised me as I spoke to her last night about a few things and she never mentioned she was going.
Seems they are already planning the next visit too, despite Simon saying this morning that he understood this doesn't work. I have such a bad headache so I could've done without that bit of news. He got all defencive about seeing his family. I DO understand that he wants to see them but I don't understand why he has to go so far away to do it. Half his family live within 2 hours drive from us, so day visits would be possible. I wish he would understand how it is for me, instead he just gets angry at me, which always happens when he is there.
If they could arrange something nearer to home so he could go for the day, that would be better. I hate being in the house at night alone. It rarely happens. When Simon was away a few weeks back for a car show, Josh was at home.
Simon gets on very well with my family and sees them regularly. If we had a family get together and all of us went except him for four days, I wonder if he would feel a bit of what I feel? Obviously he wouldn't be scared at night, but maybe he would feel just a tiny bit excluded?
I really am going now. I need some more tablets and a nice cold flannel to rest over my eyes.
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